Keeping Vampire Hours

Lately I have forgotten what sleeping really feels like. I have been keeping vampire hours this past week. Every night, if I am lucky I will get 4 hours of sleep. I'm so tired, but it's so hard to fall asleep. When I do sleep, I don't feel rested when I wake up. I guess I just have too much on my mind with mid-terms, work, etc. I feel like a zombie going to class. It is so hard for me to get up and go to class. However at night I am wide awake and can focus. I find that I can barely get out of bed in the mornings because my neck, body and throat hurts so much that I just want to stay curled up. I think that with the medication changes, my body is still getting use to the adjustment. The HOT weather is not helping (especially with my rashes). I am so tired. I forgot what major fatigue felt like until this week. I can't wait until my midterm on Friday is over so that I can actually sleep. My ankles are a bit swollen, but I expected it. It is pretty sad that I can't function until 1pm everyday for this past week. I start to feel alert around 1pm. Every morning I have to force myself to eat, but sometimes I don't. Because my throat hurts and I feel like throwing up. Mornings are hard for me. I can't wait for midterms to be over. I'm so drained. Hopefully I can fall asleep...I can't believe that it's already going to be October. Where did the time go?

I am currently listening to Euro pop/house music. hahah... the song that I am currently favoring is Kato feat. Jon- Turn the lights off.. It's so catchy, " I said oohh...Come on baby turn the lights off"

xoxo,
Kat

Bon Appétit

I made sun-dried tomatoes pasta with chicken the other night. It was yummy! Ladies: a way to a man's heart is through his stomach! So you should all learn how to cook. hahahhaha...I am just joking (not)... For those of you that don't know how to cook, this dish is very easy to make. Just follow my instructions and you will be able to make it.

Ingredients:
1. pasta (any kind you want)
2. chicken breast
3. sun-dried tomatoes (any brand you favor)
4. broccoli
5. heavy whipping cream
6. garlic (clove)
7. oregano
8. garlic salt

First you want to chopped all of your garlic clove. Then you want to chop the sun-dried tomatoes into little slices. Depending on how many people you serve, you might want to slice 1 or 2 chicken breasts. You need to slice the chicken breasts into quarter inch cubes. You want to cut the broccoli into halves.

In a pot you want to boil water for the pasta. It is easier to cook the chicken and pasta at the same time. Afterwards, you heat the pan and add olive oil to the pan with the chopped garlic. You then cook the chicken, but you don't want to over cook the chicken. You add the sugar, pepper, oregano and garlic salt to season the chicken. Just eye-ball the measurements. When you see that the chicken is almost ready, you add in the sun-dried tomatoes. After a few minutes, you add the broccoli and cover the pan with a lid. This way the heat cooks the broccoli faster.

When the broccoli is ready, you want to add some of the heavy whipping cream to make the sauce more creamy (turn the heat to low). You then add the cooked pasta to the chicken, broccoli, and sun-dried tomatoes. You can add more garlic salt, and oregano to your heart's content if you think it needs more seasoning. Mixed them all together and serve it while it is still hot. Bon Appétit!!!

xoxo,
Kat

Food Addict

I am such a food addict. I love food and eating is the best part. I can't imagine beginning an anorexic. They are missing out. I love to cook when I have time on my hands. Lately I have been to lazy to cook, but I have started to cook again. On Wednesday night, I made fried rice for the very first time. It was delicious. It tasted exactly like how my mom makes it. I knew how to make fried rice, since I grew up watching my mom make it. I never attempt to cook it when I am at home because she always make it. It is very simple to make. The ingredients that you need to make fried rice are: rice, corn, eggs, chinese sausage, and shrimp. It is called fried rice; however, you don't fried the rice. It is more of a pan seared to heat the rice and blend it with the other ingredients. The secret to making good fried rice is: premium Oyster sauce. I usually use Lee Kim Kee's oyster sauce. People have the false notion that fried rice is made with soy sauce. It doesn't taste the same. The secret ingredient is oyster sauce. It gives the fried rice so much flavor and colors the rice the perfect brown shade. Fried rice is usually made with oyster sauce and not soy sauce.

xoxo,
Kat

Golden Bears

California and Arizona kick start their conference seasons tomorrow with a showdown at Arizona Stadium. The game between the two Pac 10 rivals is scheduled to get underway at 7:00pm PT in Tucson. The bears better bring their A game.

The Bears won their first two games of the season. However, they should not get too cocky. Especially when they play against their rivals because we have seen it all before-they lost. California started its season in fifth gear with 52-3 and 52-7 victories over UC Davis and Colorado respectively. The Golden Bears down shifted last Friday, though, with a 31-52 loss at Nevada. I love watching Cal football! I can't wait for the big game against Stanford.

xoxo,
Kat

Rashes, Rashes, Rashes

I guess, I jinx myself when I said that thankfully I don't have any rashes (I opened my mouth a little to soon)...Now I'm eating my own words. I noticed some rashes on my decolletage area. It's not much but I still see them. I also noticed some rashes on my arms today. =[ I hope my rashes fade quickly and doesn't last for weeks. But knowing me that probably means that they will be here for awhile. I will now need to cover up or I can just put makeup on it (but it doesn't really help so what is the point). I don't want people to see my rashes and think what does she have? Is she contagious? Is she a freak? NO I am not contagious, my rashes will go away on its own and other people can't get it from touching me or coming in contact with me. The part that hurts the most is when friends or people that I thought were friends think that they can get sick from being in contact with me. They don't know it, but their act of ignorance hurts more than anything. How do you think I feel? It gets pretty lonely...I can't talk to anyone. Sometime I just need a friend, a should to vent on, or someone to just listen...

I use to think that they understand; however empathetic they may feel, they don't know what's its like living with an auto-immune disease (my own body attacking itself). My family don't even understand; so, how can I expect other people to understand? Sometimes I forget and think that my relatives know what SLE is until they say something like, "So you are so much better now right? You aren't sick anymore. You are young, so you heal faster." I feel so alone sometime. There are times when I feel like I'm not being heard. I can't talk to my family about my symptoms because they think that I am exaggerating and I can't talk to friends because they can't relate. This is the reason why I don't call my mom as often as she would like me to. I actually avoid calling her because I feel suffocated by her advice on how I should take care of myself (especially pertaining to alternative medicine)...I don't believe in mixing western and eastern medicine...The last time I did that it was not a good reaction. It landed me in the hospital...

I recently joined a lupus online support group. These people know what I go through daily and they actually understand my struggles. It's good being able to vent to others that understand where I am coming from. It's sad that my twin gets annoy with me at times and she thinks that I am faking my symptoms at times (I can be melodramatic at times) ahhahah...I am laughing now, but inside my heart is breaking...I usually don't tell them about my symptoms because I don't want it to seem like everything has to be about me, me, me.

I usually tell my relatives that lupus is sort of like diabetes. You can't get rid of it. Once you have it, you'll have it for the rest of your life. You have to take your meds or there will be major consequences...I would know cause I forgot to take my meds before and it was horrible.

I've been listening to Inna-hot, Cheryl Cole-parachute lately...I can't get them out of my head. Parachute has become one of my new favorite songs. The lyrics to this song is so absolutely sweet and the meaning to this song is lovely. Parachute was written by Ingrid Michaelson for Cheryl Cole. Ingrid Michaelson is also another singer. She plays the guitar so when she performs it is a little bit different. When Ingrid performs Parachute it does not sound right because she doesn't have the euro-pop sound to her voice. Cheryl does a better job of the song in my opinion.

xoxo,
Kat